Getting over

17/6/2013 10:59:24

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Omg. I have been watching skins for the past days it has taken my mind off of it.

 

I'm still sad but the reason why I haven't done one in a while is because in lazy.

 

They are happy and I'm stuck sad and upset. I wish I could do something right. Just he better not talk to me. It will never be okay for me. My friend and I both talked about it. I'm not going to bother..

Nope I'm so not okay with this. I'm glad he's happy. But he made me feel worse, supper bad, sad and depressed.

They are happy and I'm stuck sad and upset. I wish I could do something right. Just he better not talk to me. It will never be okay for me. My friend and I both talked about it. I'm not going to bother..

Nope I'm so not okay with this. I'm glad he's happy. But he made me feel worse, supper bad, sad and depressed.

 

This is what Robby said that hurt me so bad

This is what the last person said.

This might be why I will never forgive Robby, though there is one way I would forgive him but he would never say it. It might be nice to hear it. I wish he would go out of his way to say he's sorry. But he won't he's out with his boyfriend. While he doesn't know how broken I am. He was the only thing that made me happy talking to him was one of the greatest thing in my life. I wish he could ask me out and date and be mine.

My amazing dream

8/6/2013 10:22:01

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I had problem one of those dreams that I could tell Hollywood and make it real. Well I took a morning nap and I was dreaming about this rich family, they had 3 kids one was like 16 the other two were twins. Well the sixteen year old had always gotten in trouble ( like hostage) and the mom and her friends had to save him though most of the work is the mom but her friends gives good advise.

One thought was that the family was at a party and there was a killer, killing just trying to kill the twins. So the mom had to teaks down the killer. She eventually finds them and learns that they don't like babys because of there past story.

It didn't really include family drama just mainly the main parts. Or a long past story.

Whelp today...

7/6/2013 10:03:53

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I might be moppy all day. Ah. I wish I didn't messed up. I wish he never said that. Yup sounds so similar to the other guy. It really hurt me. I wish he knew how I felt. I wish we could have dated. Then he would have seen a different side of me. Now he sees this sad.

I know that if I have my eyes set on someone I can't leave them. It's just how I act. So of course it's going to be awhile before I got over him. Now he's moved on over me. Kinda feel bad, I wish he still liked me. He's the only person that I would let him do anything he wanted.

I lost him..

6/6/2013 07:35:57

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When listening to Lana Del Reys song American, I think I realised I lost someone that I could love. It will be a long time before I find some one like that. Lana Del Reys song speak to me a lot.

"I will love you til the end of time,

Baby I would wait a million years,

Promise that you'll remember you we're mind.

Say you remember,

Say you remember,

I will love you til the end of time."

Yeah Lana Del Rey Tells how I feel about Robby except some songs. American is one that shows how I feel. He once said that in the beginning there was something. I wish I could retrieve that. But at last I lost the one person I did not want to lose. It really sucks. I feel sad half the time, then jealousy at who ever is his new love interest. I wish we did go on a date, like he told me once. I never just wanted him for sex I just wanted to hug him and cuddle. I wanted to have fun with him. I wanted to fall in love with some one who loved me back. But I lost that, because I was being stupid and said something that I don't even remember saying. He told me what I said but I don't know if I said it.

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What he said once..
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What he said
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What robby said that made my cry for 2 weeks..

Those are all what Robby once told me. And now I think he is going to have sex with his lover. Maybe it's what's best. But I wish we still had a spark.

This evening..

5/6/2013 17:03:00

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  So I sayed in my step moms car today for a little bit. I was reading a nice story, it's gay erotic fiction. So there was a rare sex scene in this story of how these two guys were doing a sixty-nine and so I started to imagine... Robby.

   Holy crap how am I going to get over him if I just had a daydream, it was actually kinda hot. But wow, imagining him. Well I don't want to give the whole dream away or it would be on that website, not my blog.

     Well aside from my other blogs about Robby, I might as well tell a different story. My brother didn't want his gum anymore. He openly expressed him self about that. So my step mom gives him a drink. He then spit his gum in the drink then said " hey where's my gum?" It was pretty funny. Yeah I think that raps up my evening.

 

Why is it hard to get over some one. I have liked Robby for quite a while now but, his new hair and look have proven to me that his cute innocent face that I loved has gone. though we were never together, I was promised the whole time talking to him that we would. Maybe that's why I can't get over him.

     I'm sure we had a connection. Yes we are pretty compatible but he lacked the man in the relationship. I never really told anyone he was gay. They all assumed. Then when he blamed me on telling people the three people I actually told Them that he is straight, now they think he is straight.

     And now he's the one being so open. A lot of things he gets mad about he never bothers to here my side, and I guess he just doesn't want to fix relationships but I know for a fact what he did to me that dreaded Thursday night I still manage to tear up. It was like he was a different person. I'm still torn on wether I like him or not but the fact is its going to take some months to get over him.

 

I may not be the smartest (or best looking). But when I feel stupid and mess things up its horrible. Why do I make little mistakes. Oh yeah, because we are all not perfect. When you give up on someone with out understanding the reason. I feel like that's horrible. What's worse is that the guy I liked said something so horrible to me. Then I feel like he is going for people that look like me. I feel like I'm going crazy but I think it's fine. I'm just not being smart.