When listening to Lana Del Reys song American, I think I realised I lost someone that I could love. It will be a long time before I find some one like that. Lana Del Reys song speak to me a lot.
"I will love you til the end of time,
Baby I would wait a million years,
Promise that you'll remember you we're mind.
Say you remember,
Say you remember,
I will love you til the end of time."
Yeah Lana Del Rey Tells how I feel about Robby except some songs. American is one that shows how I feel. He once said that in the beginning there was something. I wish I could retrieve that. But at last I lost the one person I did not want to lose. It really sucks. I feel sad half the time, then jealousy at who ever is his new love interest. I wish we did go on a date, like he told me once. I never just wanted him for sex I just wanted to hug him and cuddle. I wanted to have fun with him. I wanted to fall in love with some one who loved me back. But I lost that, because I was being stupid and said something that I don't even remember saying. He told me what I said but I don't know if I said it.
Those are all what Robby once told me. And now I think he is going to have sex with his lover. Maybe it's what's best. But I wish we still had a spark.
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